Silver Moon

Silver Moon – taken by Gisela Kruger


When the night disperses darkness
your light shines ever more
no one can hide from it.

I, as well, was caught by it.

Days passed by
as I gazed upon your beauty.
My heart was filled with delight
as I drank deep in the beams of your light.
There could be no other reason
surely, you were shining,
only, for me.

By your coming and going
you drew seasons in and out,
no matter the change
I always sang underneath your gaze.

Mesmerized by your radiance,
enveloped in your brilliance,
it was as if you and I have become one.

I was caught up in a heaven of some sort,
I started to see more clearly.
And I wondered,
perhaps you were shining,
not only for me.

When you don’t get what you pray for

Processed with VSCOcam with f2 presetI love reading stories of people who’ve prayed a prayer and a miracle happend. It is usually amazing and almost something that happened instantly. It sounds like something out of a movie. My automatic thought is “Wow. God must really love that person.” Yes, He loves them. But He loves you too.

Sometimes we’ve been trusting God for a long time. You’ve been praying for something for years, and you haven’t received it yet. You are still waiting. But slowly you’ve decided to stop believing that it will happen. You still believe God is sovereign and mighty; able to do anything: raise someone to life, make someone healthy or give someone financial breakthrough. It’s just that in this one particular part of your life, God’s not come through yet.

It is no secret that we are living in an instant world. When you send a Whatsapp message and you see two blue arrows, you are almost offended if the person doesn’t send back immediately. Just don’t catch them when they’re “Online” without replying, your friendship might be over. I might be exagurating a bit, but we’ve really become like this.

God is not like that. Contrary to popular belief, He is not a magician that makes things appear in an instant. He is so much smarter than that. God knows our hearts. He knows you better than you know yourself. He knows the right timing for everything. He knows that if you get something now, it might (please note the word “might”) have you drift away from Him.

The whole story of Jesus and the story of creation speaks of one thing, intimacy with God. He is not far of. He is closer than your breath. (“No, the word is very near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart so you may obey it.” (Deuteronomy‬ ‭30‬:‭14‬ NIV)). God will do anything it takes to make sure you have a relationship with Him. But the choice lies with you. You can choose to love Him back. God in all His glory cannot force you to love Him. And that is the beauty of it.

I love the way CS Lewis puts it: “… it is just no good asking God to make us happy in our own way without bothering about religion. God cannot give us a happiness and peace apart from Himself, because it is not there. There is no such thing.”

You might be praying for things that God promised you. For example, a really amazing husband, breakthrough at work, miraculous healing for a sickness. These are all good things. God is faithful, and He will fulfill His promises. But perhaps He is trying to fix your attention on Him, rather than the thing.

If you have not yet received your promise, it does not mean you do not have faith. You have faith. You only need faith as small as a mustard seed (Luke 17:6). You just need to keep that faith in motion. Keep on trusting God.

I have come to the conclusion, that the “breakthrough” is not necessarily when you receive a promise, but rather through keeping faith during the wait. The miracle might not be getting what I pray for, but not getting what I pray for. Instead, gaining something else of eternal value, far greater than I could ever imagine.